16 October
“O, Lord, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.”
– Psalm 139:1-2
This question “Who is God?” has captured the minds of many people, including me.
I started having this question in my mind although I was part of a big christian family. As time went by I realized that I didn’t know Christ personally. I knew many things about Him, I used to sing to Him but He was not for me what He was supposed to be!
I wasn’t His child. When I was 14 I came to know Christ in a christian summer camp and then I got baptized but the transformation process was a long one, it lasted for three years. During all of this time God showed me that He was present with me all the time and in all places and that whatever I did or wanted to be, He knew my name. When I was 17 I faced various trials, I had friends, family who died and I started having spiritual battles, wondering which was my identity? Who am I? Who is God and what did He do for me? What’s our purpose on this earth?
Although I wandered off into the world, I sensed Him protecting me and loving me, not allowing me to do the things that the ones around me did (smoking, having lovers, partying etc).
Even in those moments I knew that my actions were not right. So, doubts flooded my mind and the devil tricked me into thinking that no one loves me, not even my parents, my brothers, the church, not even God as I was experiencing helplessness and I thought I was despised but all of these feelings were not true!
So, in my desperation I decided one night to kill myself. I took the meds of my mum and swallowed the whole bottle hoping that I will be free from my pain, from everybody else.
While I was crying I told God that if He really loved and cherished me -like my mum used to tell me, like it was written in the Bible, that His love was unconditional-that He should wake me up healty the next morning and in this way I should know that He is sovereign in all things and that He loves me so much.
I am not proud of that moment, I let myself be deceived but I thank our Lord Jesus Christ that in those moments I saw that no matter how many sins I had, His love is unconditional and that He wants me for Himself. So from that moment on, I realized what I have done and my life changed completely.
I bowed down, I asked for His forgiveness and I promised Him that from that moment on I would follow Him and that I will tell everyone who is God for me and that in this life you can lose it all but if you don’t have Christ you have nothing at all.
This is how I received this calling of getting involved in ministry, my biggest desire being to help teenagers and the youth and by His grace I started working with children, then with teenagers and with the youth! After I got married, I started working with the women, too and I am really excited about doing His work.
Together with the rest of my family we are serving our Lord in Daneasa among adults, youth, teenagers and children. I praise God that every moment of my life, by His grace I told people about how wonderful He is and how great is it to know that God is the One that can be your friend,brother,mother, father and your Creator who knows you entirely.
I am happy because God worked in my daughter’s life too, Ruth, who accepted Christ as her Lord and Saviour and decided to get baptized.
I pray for her so that God may strengthen her, that He may help her get to know Him deeper and that I may be there for her.
I got involved in the lives of teenagers and youth and I had this desire of telling them how wonderful is our Creator and my prayer is that they might get to know Christ personally and experience Him more and more.
The joy on their faces is indescribable and wonderful.
When I see how God talks to them , how Christ works changes in their lives,I am overjoyed.
We are called to serve Him at all times.
Prayer requests:
- guidance for the youth so that God may open new hearts and their number ne greater.
- God to strengthen us as a family, as servants and that He might be glorified.
- For Daneasa to know His salvation.
- Revival among the youth, teenagers, children and adults.
We are thankful to our Lord for all your love, support and prayers lifted for us.
May He bless you abundantly!
